"Here I am, Lord send me"

Hebrews 11:1
"Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen."

Isaiah 6:8
"Then I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, "Whom shall I send, and who will go for Us?" Then I said, "Here am I. Send me!"


I have been thinking a lot about these two Scriptures lately, and how to apply them to my life. Faith is an amazing thing! We all strive to have it, but won't give ourselves to it. It seems like we are always saying "oh, just have faith" but do we really understand what faith is? Hebrews chapter 11 explains clearly what TRUE faith is. I cannot imagine standing at an altar getting ready to sacrifice my child as Abraham did. Or taking on the huge task of building an ark because God said He was going to flood the earth.

Then I think about the second verse, how many times have I been unwilling to be sent? How many times have I said "send me" but my actions showed otherwise? I truly want to be used by Christ and to Glorify Him, I want my family to be a tool that He takes and does amazing things with. God has blessed me with so many opportunities to serve Him, He has allowed my child to learn things that I could only pray she would learn (but that's or another time). Every time that I stubbornly submit to His plan He blesses my life and shows me how awesome the plan is,then I think "wow I should've done this in the first place". How many times will it take of me bucking His plan to realize that God is ALWAYS right?

As my family prepares to set out to serve God in this new area of Mexico and Belize my prayer is that we will have faith that God will provide and take care of us like only He can, and that we will have the kind of conviction that makes us move mountains so that nothing stands between us and spreading the gospel. I pray that anytime God asks "whom shall I send?" That we as a family will quickly respond "send us".

Love Always
Jordan


Here I am by: downhere

Sometimes your calling, comes in dreams
Sometimes it comes in the Spirit's breeze,
You reach for the deepest hope in me,
And call out for the things of eternity.

But I'm a man, of dust and stains,
You move in me, so I can say,

[Chorus:]
Here I am, Lord send me,
All of my life, I make an offering,
Here I am, Lord send me,
Somehow my story, Is a part of your plan,
Here I am

When setbacks and failures, and upset plans,
Test my faith and leave me with empty hands,
Are you not the closest when it's hardest to stand?
I know that you will finish what you began.

And these broken parts you redeem
Become the song, that I can sing

Here I am, Lord send me,
All of my life, I make an offering,
Here I am, Lord send me,
Somehow my story, Is a part of your plan,
Here I am

Overwhelmed by the thought of my weakness,
And the fear that I'll fail you in the end,
In this mess, I'm just one of the pieces,
I can't put this together but you can.

Here I am, Lord send me,
I wanna live my life as an offering
Here I am, Lord send me,
Somehow my story, Is part of your plan,
Here I am

Here I am, all my life an offering to you, to you
Somehow my story, Is a part of your plan,
Here I am